Guest Blog - The Other Half Of Team Pants Stacey Williams!

She been quiet for far to long, so here she is! In her own words, I give you Miss Stacey Williams :

Hey Stacey here...... Hello! So i thought it was about time I actually jumped on the Blog wagon and introduced my self properly..... Ill start with the boring bits 1st, so I'm Stacey Williams a care assistant living on hayling island, mother to one and wife to be..... so this is where it all began I was checking out my social media accounts Facebook and twitter and I see a young lady who I had never met..... yep didn't even know who Janine was until February of this year! Asking celebrities for signed underwear for a Cancer research charity event.... not for 1 second did I think I would become such a huge part of the night, so I began retweeting sending messages to celebrities in fact I even stalked one at the mayflower theatre (I am a little crazy), I messaged Janine wanting to purchase tickets and to be quite honest the rest is history..... so I was officially a key member of Pant & Bras to cancer, it went from not knowing someone to speaking and texting on the phone nearly every other day. Sending emails day and night to celebrities their agents, local and bigger companies to get donations for the raffle I became a big part of my life. Your probably all thinking 💭 hold on Janine is planning an event and the next minute someone girl Janine doesn't even know has popped up from know where and is helping.... yep pretty much! WHY?? I don't know I've not really got an answer for that I suppose I think if the shoe 👠 was on the other foot there would be someone out there that would want to help me.... Janine asked me towards the end WHY? WHY did you help? WHY did u want to help? And that is the only reason I could give, to be honest I secretly enjoyed every minute of it from the emails that declined help to meeting Colin Ashcroft and managing to get a pink bus 🚌. So since the event it's very much team #TaylorWilliams we're now planning another event a Christmas fair and funday for children and children cancer charities, this started the day after the charity ball, so the next few months will be filled with emails and obtaining as many raffle prizes for children as we can.

From what started as 2 people who lived on a small island who never even knew each other has turned into a great friendship and I'm just glad I put the effort in to help Janine with her 1st charity event and here's to many to come.....

Janine: thank you for letting me be apart of the team I totally love you to bits you have done amazing the past few months after everything that has been thrown your way you have fought back and come out even stronger you really should be proud of yourself xx

Right I'll hand this blog back to the lady in charge but I'll be sure to pop back and say Hi again xxxx

Then V's Now...

Now the ball is in the bag you would think that things would of calmed down in our house, wouldn't you? Nope! Not at all, no time for sitting still because in just 47 days time there is a huge event coming!! ....It's Mason's 2nd birthday!!! The big TWO!

With every milestone he's hit in his short little life so far, I find myself feeling quietly grateful. Why grateful? Grateful because I got to see it.

My beautiful boy is going to be two!!! How did that happen?! However It also means that I've been fighting the dreaded C word for two years too! Something that will forever go hand in hand and I can't tell you how angry that makes me!

But what I'm trying to focus on is....I'm still here!!! Two years and I'm still here!!! 'Ave that cancer!!!

I can't rewrite the past and I have to move forward. We are in such a better place to the the one We were two years ago. That's something we must hold on to as a family.

These photos were taken Christmas 2014, at this point I had a date for chemo which would be in the first week in January,  I had a new born baby, who I was totally in love with and every time I looked at him my heart broke because I was scared I wouldn't see him grow up.

To me these photos say it all...I just look so sad...

I remember it hurt to smile but in front of Kiera I had to try. My eyes were puffy from constant crying but I would instantly stop the second she walked into the room...I knew I had to.


That was then though ....and look at us now! 

If you had asked me two years ago if I thought we would ever get to this point, I would never of believed we would. Ok, it's not over it will probably never be over. If I wait for an ending, I will be waiting forever. So instead, I must enjoy and live for the moment. Today I am healthy (ish), tomorrow I might not me but then I will deal with that when tomorrow comes! 

I'm not who I was two years ago, I may never be her again and that is ok! I am learning who I am now more everyday. 

There are still dark moments, moments when I feel I want to give up and that's ok too (If you know me, these are the days I'm particularly loud and chatty because I'm over compensating)! 

So here we are two years on from the worst and best things that ever happened to me, both at the same time. 

What will we be doing to mark this? Well, we will be having a (slightly over the top for a two year old) party at Legoland Resort hotel, in Windsor!! 

As a family, we love Legoland it's our happy place. When I was poorly an organisation called the willows foundation paid for Myself, Steve, Kiera and Mason to spend two days and a night there. Well, we were hooked and have been back several times since! When I wasn't as strong as I am now, it was a little escape for us. The kids love it and in the hotel, Steve would take the kids swimming while I could go and have a lay down, things like that. The times we've spent there were one of the few times I was able to forget for a while I was ill and we were happy. 

Anyway...so being that Mason' birthday is November 19th, the park part of the resort will actually be closed so it's just the hotel. It will still be utterly fabulous though! Some of my family and close friends have booked into the hotel too for the night so there will be 32 of us in total! I have booked a party at the hotel for the kids and they will going swimming after, followed by dinner in the restaurant together and a couple of drinks to finish off!!... I can't wait!!! 

I'm spending any free time I have at the moment making Lego themed goodies for the kids and little touches to make it special for them. 

I'm not silly...I'm fully aware Mason won't remember, I know it's over the top but do you know what? I don't care!! You only live once and my goodness I'm going to go for it!! 

I have a few hospital visits between now and then so actually it's a brilliant distraction all this planning! I have an appointment with a neurologist which is concerning me slightly (I don't really know why I'm going), I think it's more towards the meningitis side of my health then the cancer side so that's something I suppose. 

Until then though I'm all about the Lego....and maybe a cheeky Christmas fundraiser!