Today is exactly a week until the ball!! I can not believe we are at this point and to be honest I don't think I've ever felt so nervous about anything in my life!
Sounds dramatic Perhaps, but it's so important to me that it's a success! I want to do the people I love proud for all the support they've given me and most of all I want to do the people that haven't been as lucky as me in fighting this horrible illness proud!
Stacey and I had a final stages planning meeting last night and although all so exciting there is still so much to do! It's funny because we are so different, Stacey does everything yesterday where as I will do everything tomorrow! Some how though it just works, we have pulled together something amazing and I am in no doubt we will raise a nice amount for Cancer Research UK!
As we sat there last night going through the ins and outs of everything, I finally asked the question I always wondered but never asked
"Stace..."
"Yep" ...she answered without looking up from the notes she was writing.
"Why did you decide to help me with this, I mean to just randomly help a perfect stranger".
She looked up from her notes, was silent for a moment and then replied with a smile.
"I don't know...I just saw what you wanted to do on social media and thought it was really cool! "
Now I know Stacey, I understand that to her it really is as simple as that! She's just one of these genuinely good people that you rarely come across in this life. She saw something that was important so in her mind why wouldn't she actively help? Would I have done the same the other way round? Helped a complete stranger arrange a charity event? If I'm really honest the answer is probably not. She really has put in as much effort, time and heart into this as me. I will always be grateful and I'm so glad to now be able to call her my friend.
Anyway, enough with the mushy stuff! Today Stacey has been down to Havant bus station discussing our very own pink bus! Colin Ashcroft of Stage Coach buses has kindly offered to donate their pink Cancer Research bus for the evening! How awesome is that?!
The Bus is a new addition to Stage Coach and we will be only the second people to use it! The first was the ladies who work for the company to take them to the race for life at Worthing this year. Naturally, we feel very privileged! Unfortunately neither Stacey or I will be able to arrive by it due to setting up and things but I'm hoping my Parents will be able to take my bus obsessed toddler on it! Colin has even said we can have "Pants & Bras to Cancer" and he had the idea of "Mason's Bus" or something with Mason's name mentioned in it where the number normally is. I got a bit emotional when she told me that bit! What a nice man, I look forward to meeting him and thanking him personally.
Sounds dramatic Perhaps, but it's so important to me that it's a success! I want to do the people I love proud for all the support they've given me and most of all I want to do the people that haven't been as lucky as me in fighting this horrible illness proud!
Stacey and I had a final stages planning meeting last night and although all so exciting there is still so much to do! It's funny because we are so different, Stacey does everything yesterday where as I will do everything tomorrow! Some how though it just works, we have pulled together something amazing and I am in no doubt we will raise a nice amount for Cancer Research UK!
As we sat there last night going through the ins and outs of everything, I finally asked the question I always wondered but never asked
"Stace..."
"Yep" ...she answered without looking up from the notes she was writing.
"Why did you decide to help me with this, I mean to just randomly help a perfect stranger".
She looked up from her notes, was silent for a moment and then replied with a smile.
"I don't know...I just saw what you wanted to do on social media and thought it was really cool! "
Now I know Stacey, I understand that to her it really is as simple as that! She's just one of these genuinely good people that you rarely come across in this life. She saw something that was important so in her mind why wouldn't she actively help? Would I have done the same the other way round? Helped a complete stranger arrange a charity event? If I'm really honest the answer is probably not. She really has put in as much effort, time and heart into this as me. I will always be grateful and I'm so glad to now be able to call her my friend.
Anyway, enough with the mushy stuff! Today Stacey has been down to Havant bus station discussing our very own pink bus! Colin Ashcroft of Stage Coach buses has kindly offered to donate their pink Cancer Research bus for the evening! How awesome is that?!
The Bus is a new addition to Stage Coach and we will be only the second people to use it! The first was the ladies who work for the company to take them to the race for life at Worthing this year. Naturally, we feel very privileged! Unfortunately neither Stacey or I will be able to arrive by it due to setting up and things but I'm hoping my Parents will be able to take my bus obsessed toddler on it! Colin has even said we can have "Pants & Bras to Cancer" and he had the idea of "Mason's Bus" or something with Mason's name mentioned in it where the number normally is. I got a bit emotional when she told me that bit! What a nice man, I look forward to meeting him and thanking him personally.
The bus is in memory of Colin's Mum Sandy Ashcroft who unfortunately lost her battle with Cancer this year. I hope we do her proud and raise lots of money for the charity.
I've read 2 stories this week of ladies who have recently lost their battle to cancer. Both of them around my age, one lady who lives local to me and one in Wales, who's story I have followed since I was diagnosed. I didn't know either of them personally but that doesn't stop me feeling sad. Well, actually I have experienced a mix of emotions by it all! I feel sad for them, then guilty that I'm still here, and then frightened. Sometimes I can shake all those feelings off and remind myself I'm lucky and just stick with that. because I am, I'm so lucky but then other times I just can't.
I had my review this week with the intensive care unit too which I think helped because they were so happy with how I've progressed. They started at first asking questions like "do you manage ok yet with stairs yet", "can you walk for long" and "do you have someone at home with you to help you"...she was a little surprised when I said explained that I went back to work three weeks ago and am basically back to how I was! Although this was just for the meningitis side of things, it does give me a boost and gives me a well needed shake. Most people who go so quickly down hill with Meningitis like I did don't get back up again. Less then 3 months ago I was laying in a bed in that ward with tubes and machines unconscious for days and now it's like it never happened.
I think it's only now it really hits me that I really could of died! Again, the lady talking to me was full of smiles and seemed genuinely happy at how well I'm doing. When you work in intensive care there aren't so many happy endings I suppose! I will never stop saying it but I'm so lucky! I do struggle some times with coordination still but not so anybody would really notice, my short term memory is terrible and sometimes when I try to concentrate I struggle, but it's nothing really! It may get better over time but it may not, if it doesn't it's not the end of the world!
While I was at the hospital I popped in on Chloe, the friend I made when I was in hospital. She unfortunately is poorly again so she had to go back in recently. She's back on the same ward we were in back in June and it was really bizarre walking back in there! Although I hated every minute of be there, waking back in was quite comforting and familiar!...perhaps because I knew I wasn't staying!!!
Also I've finally got a date this week for when we are going to be in love it magazine! It's going to be out on 6th October 2016! It's been written for months but with all this meningitis rubbish they held off publishing it! I hope it doesn't come off as a 'poor me' article as I would hate that.
Also I've finally got a date this week for when we are going to be in love it magazine! It's going to be out on 6th October 2016! It's been written for months but with all this meningitis rubbish they held off publishing it! I hope it doesn't come off as a 'poor me' article as I would hate that.
Even with so much to do and even considering we haven't finished this event, I'm still playing around with ideas of what we can do next! This can't be the end of Pants (& Bras) To Cancer although we may have to rethink the name if underwear isn't involved! I'm thinking maybe a Christmas for kids but maybe that's being too ambitious when it's only 3 months away!!!
Any ideas welcomed!
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